Yesterday, my hubby and I were watching one of the greatest movies of all time . . . "Lord of The Rings". The main character Frodo was feeling lost and confused, unsure as to why he had been giving the HUGE responsibility of destroying the ring (it's an evil ring, a darkness that consumes all that hold it - hhmmm very interesting, sounds a bit like addiction, huh?) . Anyway, he had to face challenge after challenge, testing his own strength and fortitude. In a moment of weakness, a moment when he was feeling sorry for himself that life had dealt him this card, a moment where he felt he could not go on . . . this is what he said:
I wish this ring had never come to me, I wish none of this had happened.Gandalf, the great all knowing and wise wizard replies to him:
So do all who live to see such times but it is not for them to decide. All you have to decide is what to do with the time that has been given to you.
When I heard these words . . . . I immediately felt a deep connection to them. I often feel that I wish this "addiction" had not come to us, that life would be so much easier if these weren't our problems.
But what Gandalf said is so very true and I keep hearing those words in my head . . . all I can do is decide what to do with the direction my path is taking me. I cannot change the past, nor can I foresee the future. I can however, live in the present, enjoy this stage of recovery with the closeness that it has brought us and decide what to do with the lessons that I have learned.
Maybe the universe was speaking to me? Who knows . . .